When I first entered motherhood all I heard was "the first year is the hardest. It'll get easier after that." I seriously am contemplating whether that statement holds any truth to it. In the past few weeks I feel like Kaiden has gotten busier, more "emotional" and adventurous causing me to seriously think that we must be a little crazy to add another child to the mix so soon.
In the past few days Kaiden has really gotten into climbing. On many occations I have turned around only to gasp in fear as I watch him standing on the coffee table, running from side to side on the couch or jumping on the ottoman. I have kissed more boo-boos in the past couple of days than I ever thought imaginable. Yesterday, I looked outside to find that he had pushed my laundry basket out the sliding glass door that leads to our back yard and so neatly piled my clothing on the porch (thankyouverymuch) while he continued to push the basket around the yard. I am tired of retrieving dog food from my son's mouth which he happens to "taste test" several times a day. My dog has now grown to astronomical weights for a Chihuahua because all the food that Kaiden is supposed to eat gets fed to Paco by our generous and giving son. I have cleaned up bits of toilet paper from the floor that he has picked off the roll or papers that he has pulled out of my drawers. I have wiped up water off the floor from him splashing in the dog bowl and my voice is hoarse from yelling "Kaiden, please come back in here" or "No, we don't _____ (fill in the blank)." Will it ever end cause quite frankly, I'm exhausted.
With all that said, I really am thinking that this is by far the most enjoyable time that we have had in the past 17 months. It is fun to watch Kaiden learn and discover something new everyday. He has really taken to the playground and begun to climb the stairs and brave the sliding board. He has become so loving and wants to kiss and hug Mommy, Daddy and Paco all that he can. He has finally mastered drinking from a straw and juice boxes have now become the coolest thing ever. He is really starting to "communicate" better with us and understands simple commands like, "go outside," "get your shoes," "turn around," "close the door," "where's your truck?" and "do you want some water?" Bath time has felt more like a trip at the local water park then a quick dip in the bathtub. The small things that I forget to stop and notice anymore I have rediscovered. Flowers, bugs, carpet fuzz, sprinklers, rocks and sand are all on the list of "Wow, buddy, that is really cool, isn't it?"
So where am I going with this all? Frankly I am not quite sure. All I know is that most days I'm exhausted, annoyed, impatient and Kaiden is driving me crazy more and more everyday...and I love every second of it. Well, maybe not the times that he throws himself on the floor in a fit because he is hungry or tired, but you get the point. I get sad to see him growing up so fast and often wonder where the time has gone. I look forward to each day and want to hold on to the memories because I know that one day I'll look back and realize 10 years has gone by in the blink of an eye. I am blessed. I love my job.
On another note, it's my birthday today and I deserve a break. So I'm turning off my phone and every chance I get I'm putting my feet up and enjoying my milk and cookies. And in case you were wondering, yes, I am 29. Again.