It has been an amazing year and I can't believe how quickly it has all gone by! Bound and determined, a year ago, you made your way into this big, bad world. Leaving the comforts of my belly for the sterile surroundings of the incubator where you would spend the next six weeks growing bigger and stronger before we could bring you home. It was a stressful time for Daddy and I as we made our daily trips to the hospital to hold you and comfort you before we would have to come home. Without you. But for however brief those visits were, I somehow found comfort in knowing that you were in God's hands. That when we weren't there, He was looking over you and, in the end, it would all be okay.
I still remember that wonderful day that we finally got to bring you home from the hospital. We loaded you in your car seat and cautiously drove the freeways to our home. Your new home. When we got there, Daddy and I just looked at each other as if to say, "What do we do now?" Unfortunately, you didn't come with an instruction manual but we soon started to figured it all out, through trial and error and a whole lot of prayer.
Since then it has been an amazing roller coaster ride. We have enjoyed watching you grow, change and discover the world around you. I remember your first smile, your first laugh, the first time you slept through the night (cause I sure didn't!), the first time you rolled over, the first time you ate "real" food, the first time you crawled. I remember the first time you said "Mama." And even though you were looking at the dog when you said it, I knew that you really were saying it to me!
As you turn 1 today I find myself experiencing a mix of emotions. I have slight feelings of sadness. Sadness that a whole year has gone by in a blink of an eye, wishing that I could have just one of those days back. Happiness about the immense joy that you have brought me each and every day. And feelings of pure excitement as I look towards the future. Hopeful of the person that you will become through our guidance.
I thank God every day for giving you to me. For trusting me as your mother to help teach you and love you. I thank God for giving me a husband, and you a father, that will provide and protect you and teach you over the years what it means to be caring, compassionate, hard working and teach you how to be a leader of your family that you will someday have. I thank God for your health. Even though you had a rough start, you were a fighter and have been amazing us all along by your utter determination. I couldn't be any prouder to have you as my son.
I love you forever, I'll like you for always, as long as I'm living, my baby you'll be.
Happy 1st birthday, my precious baby boy!
Hugs, kisses and oogles of love,